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Its funny how i was so focused at the start of the year. i had everything i wanted in sight. and i knew everything that i was aiming for. things havent changed much, but some have....
definitely, ive grown up a little in important parts since the last time i let you know whats goin on in my head. i think i would like to say that ive even become a little bit better of a person too... but you know, sometimes you just feel like there are things you wish you could have you know? so here are things i would like to have. materialistic and non-materialistic!
monetary wants -
timbuk2 wallet
new pair of sneakers
new heart for my macbook
extra cash to save
iPhone 3Gs (GRINS)
non-materialistic wants -
to know definitely where or what id like to study
to be finally settled and happy.
to see places and learn things i havent in life
and the most important, the non materialistic thing that i want the most,
is for the people i think about all the time to stop pushing me away.
sigh.
lets see how many of those i can check off by the end of the year.
cheers
Danial Cheah
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[03 Apr 2009|11:17pm] |
what a ride... im really gonna miss the dorm guys.
station 22 here i come!
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[21 Feb 2009|01:16am] |
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its a friday night and im back home again. i like being home, even if the past few weeks events at home have slightly dampened the mood i have here. sometimes i try to come up with reasons why home doesnt feel like home anymore.
maybe its cause my sister and my brother in law have moved out
maybe its cause i dont really enjoy my other sister's company
maybe its cause the guys in my dorm make me laugh more.
maybe its cause i dont have a proper internet connection at the moment and im feeding off some neighbours linksys. (sorry)
maybe alot of things you know? but at the end of the day, the reasons dont add up and home still feels like home no matter how difficult, how un-enjoyable it is nowadays. truth is, i look forward to seeing kitty on the front porch, i look forward to unlocking my door which doesnt have a traditional lock, i look forward to going up to my room and i look forward to lying in my bed. cause home's still home to me.
truthfully, my mom doesnt know about how i plan to travel to places this year. and i dont think she has an inkling that there's a part of me that wants to travel as much as i can while i can and that that part of me is starting to surface because i can find the means now to do it. i plan to visit canada, australia, romania, do a SEA trip and most of all, my beloved trip to alaska.
on my own or maybe with one or two more persons at max.
i want to do these trips cause i think ill enjoy the individuality of it all. i want to do these trips because i would like to show myself what i have believed in all these years. that the world is so much bigger than you and me, and that you need to see these places to be humbled by them. but yet, i have a nagging feeling that the part of these trips that i will enjoy the most, is the trip back home. cause i know no matter how long, tiring or taxing the trip back home takes, i know im heading somewhere where kitty's on the front bench waiting for me.
i did something today that i havent done at all, its not anything big. but i typed in home on my itunes and these are the songs that i have on my computer.
Home - Daughtry
Sweet Home Alabama - Dave Matthews Band/ Lynard Skynard
Back Home - Clapton
Find Your Way Back Home - Dishwalla
Homecoming - Green Day
Home Life - John Mayer
Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5
Follow You Home - Nickelback
Is Anybody Home? - Our Lady Peace
i dont know what it means, its just something interesting to do. of all these songs i think only nickelbacks i havent listened to properly.
im gonna go lie on my bed and let sleep take me.
lets see where it takes me tonight.
and to all of you who keep visiting for an update, again i wanna say a whole load of love goes out to you
Love,
Danial Cheah
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[31 Dec 2008|09:36pm] |
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I've decided that past resolutions havent really been that much of a success.. and for some time i was wondering why my resolutions havent been quite as successful as i hoped;;;;
then i came to realise that maybe ive been going about the whole thing wrong. which is why this year,
i mean for 09,
instead of starting new habits, its time to stop old habits that havent been good for me.
i figure if i can start with removing the things that are bad about/for me, then maybe i can carry it on into starting new habits that are good for me.
so yes, simple i guess. but lets hope its effective.
have a very happy new year,
and for those who read this regularly. or at least visit it regularly,
loads of love goes out to all of you.
cheers,
Danial C
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[26 Oct 2008|10:54am] |
since its been 7 weeks since ive gone into NS, i figured maybe its time i wrote an update about how life is in camp.
well, this week, we were introduced to the swinging trainer, and i have never seen any of my course mates more happy or skilled at completing an obstacle/station. all of them seriously had no problems from one end of the swinging trainer to the other. to tell you the truth, i was really quite impressed.
so after a while, i kinda finally figured out why they were so good at it. it wasnt that hard really, i just had to remind myself that the majority of my course mates werent chinese.
and if you have no clue whatsoever about what a swinging trainer is, go ask your nearest friendly NSF.
cheers
Danial C
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[22 Aug 2008|03:20am] |
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
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[12 Jul 2008|07:30am] |
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OFFICIALLY THE MOST HAPPY DAY OF THE MONTH OF JULY.
AND.
Where The Light Is by JM is also officially the BEST live concert DVD that i have watched so farrrrrrr!!!!!!!
my only regret was that i didnt get to watch it with liting and JJ as well.
ah well... im very sure jj will be swinging by in the near future to watch it with me. and for the meantime, the only songs on my playlist are the songs that are on my Where The Light Is CD.
=D
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| cant love too much one part of. |
[29 Jun 2008|01:08am] |
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This is for the boys who stay up late at night thinking about sushi
This is for the girls in front a streamed show on a chinese website but letting her mind wander elsewhere
This is for the couple who, despite getting married, feels like the whole world is against them.
This is for the people who love them.
This is for the lovers half a world away.
This is for the boy on a 7 hour flight missing his girl
And his girl back at home thinking about him, crying.
This is for all those people and the million more who is inside of you.
And this is for me.
I figured. Life isnt as complicated as we know or think.
hard, yes.
complicated, no.
its cliche when you know im going to tell you that any period of life that you go through is just a phase and that itll be over whether or not its getting really tough. but lets not make it cliche and lets just imagine that everything before you, everything before me, never happened. lets imagine we're doing this for the first time.
would anything that you have done, or everything that you are feeling would be any different? you want to feel better. you want to know what to do . well, ill raise my hand now and tell you. im sorry, i dont know how to make it better.
but i do know one thing. we know whats important to us. and when you know that, in this imaginary situation, you'd know what you would ideally want to do realistically. nothing's really right or wrong. its just dependent on what you deem important to you. cause i figure if you end up somewhere unhappy, then you'd know what it takes and what you need to do to make you happy. and if you feel like you keep making the decisions which make you unhappy, then you're not really stuck, you're just going through more unhappy times to get to the happy ones.
why some people have to go through more unhappy times to get to the happy ones when some seem to get happy ones all the time? i dont know. but what i do know is, everything evens out.
it has to.
as JM says, when you go through the accounting books of life for hours on end, and then you realise that it all finally comes out even. then you ask "well what was it all for?".
well, you did it didnt you?
Because, at the end of the day, when i told you at the beginning to imagine we're doing this for the first time, its no real difference from where we are now are we? we are doing this for the first time. and its not about treading around decisions that would make you and people unhappy. its about going through it. and its about letting what youve been through be a part of you.
its not something you should be ashamed of, but rather, proud of. Cause for that, you've become not a better or a worse person. youve become just something more. and becoming something more is whats ultimately going to give you whats important to you. or addressing whats important to you.
so whether or not its about wanting to cry, or to sleep, or to sing at the top of ure lungs to youreself, just go ahead with it. the very end of your life, you're gonna shuffle out the unhappy and the happy, and you'd realise you had to get to the happy to get the unhappy. Then youd say it makes perfect sense.
so really, instead of avoiding life, be ready for it. and dont stop no matter what happens.
cause you're not going to anyway.
does it still seem complicated to you?
not me.
cheers
Danial Cheah
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| July 1st is coming! |
[26 Jun 2008|08:06am] |
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Once upon most every morning
I woke up to her flying there
Hummingbird was making blows of
Blowing rings of purple in the air
All the while
I was trying to keep her there
Now I’m man enough to leave
Man enough to always care
Hummingbird
Just because I said I didn’t want her
Doesn’t mean I want her to go
In fact, I quite depended on her
But that I didn’t want her to know
Now that’s she’s gone I know
All the while
I was trying to keep her there
That’s all I heard
That’s my hummingbird
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hello!
thought i should update to keep the people who read this journal updated. since school's out, i dont see many of you nowadays. so yeah, heres me.
well, weber has been ok. ive been picking up a couple of stuff already and im sure theres loads more to come. was talking to jj just now and he said my learning curve's pretty steep at the moment. I think im gonna have to agree on that one you know? cause ive never ever worked in the industry and especially with weber as my first, its not only things that you learn which are really professional, its the people you work with who are at the highest level. and its a regional headquarter so i dont need to say more, my work is all currently being done at an international scale.
What i DO have to say though. is that whatever level you're working at, WINDOWS SUCK. i swear if only i could bring my mac with me to work, i bet it would take half the time i did at work to complete what i needed to do. really, windows is such a sucky machine and only mac users know the extent of it when they're forced to work with windows at work.
anyway, on a happier note,
the torrent gods must be repaying me for all the hardwork ive done and the non-torrenting- hours that i've clocked up.
cheers!
Danial C
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| cherylene at 5 am. |
[06 Jun 2008|04:55am] |
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and later she asks me how is it sexual...
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[26 May 2008|08:07pm] |
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fizzi came along and we tagged along with my bike crazy family. this is just a preview of thier hardware.
and after a whole morning's cycle with all of us new riders feeling like crap, we took a cycle down to the quarry and some of them were trying to catch a turtle...
took the video with my iphone! =) the mp4 file is pretty smooth but once it goes thru youtube compression it becomes really sucky though
ah well... back to lazing around!
danial c
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[23 May 2008|03:35am] |
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life is at a standstill. i seem to be waiting for everything, its getting quite tedious. who would have thought that waiting would be tedious? and for once i dont really enjoy it and i dont really know what to do about it. getting through this transition period its starting to irritate and bite through me bit by bit. i get irritated easily up to the point where its quite annoying cause even when things are right there for me to go to, i prefer to shun it.
im getting too lazy to get my ass off and out to do things that i know i have to do and instead i do things that i dont really need to. and for once in my life, im starting to feel like life doesnt have any meaning to it. things are moving too slow!!!
and as much as i know very soon life's pace is gonna pick up and start going really fast, i am actually quite looking forward to getting there instead of taking it slow. you see, taking it slow when life is speeding ahead is more of my thing. the whole standing still while life is crawling by doesnt really work for me.
do i even make any sense?
at this point of the time usually id be tempted to place down a line which goes something like, "starting tomorrow/next week/as of now....." except this is the extent to which i feel so sucky. i dont even feel like putting down a challenge or resolution for myself in a bid to change how things are going.
i think this is the down was inevitably coming after the fast paced, great events that took place on my birthday month. if its anything to go by, the first month of my 21st year of life is going extremely dull.
maybe its just that the things and the people im waiting for are there waiting for me too.
tsk. hate this
Danial C
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[04 May 2008|06:49am] |
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The new love of my life. =)
i told you i was gonna host up a picture of her.... here she is... well, she doesn't look that adorable in this picture but i tell you, this girls smiles non-stop... and she's like me too! she lovvessssss sembuis. =D
well, sadly livejournal makes it that much more of a pain to upload photos so i dont really do it that often but i was thinking, ah, what the hell, i only turn 21 once and i wanna share my celebrations with u (or whoever reads my journal that is).
so here we go, first, i had my family party thingy on saturday...
thats my gramma putting on my impromptu bday hat. =)
cousins...
all my girl cousins....
family...
and the amaazziinngggg cupcakes my auntie made for me....
then on monday, which was my actual birthday, a group of us went down to litings pace for dinner... too bad the steak wasnt available... what id give for yummy steakkkk!! These are all taken with my iPhone so the images are abit scrappy....
thats Jas, doesnt look TOO broken hearted.. =)
hope shes doing great where she is at the moment. =)
ah chu, cherylene and zhar.
and the oh-so-beautiful kristy
the bday boy and the bday girl.
oh and my bday gifts...
i think the iPhone takes much better photos in the light...
lastly....
boy do i look haggard.... tsk..
alright, no more pics! or actually im just really lazy to post the rest...
cheers!
Danial C
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| im 21! |
[29 Apr 2008|01:59am] |
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my 21st, was nothing short of fantastic.
and i would just like to say thanks to everyone who was there, whether it was on saturday with my family or if it was today with all of my friends.
i think with today, as cliche'd as it might sound, was a chapter closed on my first 21 years of my life. to everyone who's been trying to drill it into me that its not about growing older, but about looking forward to the next phase of my life as its gonna be the most exciting ones of my life, you were right. and im starting to see things the way it should be.
i love all of you.
sincerely from the bottom of my heart.
it couldnt have been much better. and the lengths that my loved ones went to ensure that i had a great 21st, i truly appreciate it. if anything, today made me realise how much my friends around me i should cherish and love with every breath that i have.
as for family, there's nothing much to say is there?
i'd die for anyone of them.
and id just like to say. happy 20th val!
cheers
Danial Cheah, 21
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| unofficial 21st |
[27 Apr 2008|05:58am] |
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today wasnt perfect, but i never ask for perfection, and i wouldnt have had things any other way today. for today i had the most unforgettable and amazing unofficial birthday with my whole family.
the food, chocolate cupcakes, huge ass 21 birthday cake and most importantly, the people were great. i dont have any pics now, but ill be damn sure to post them up when i get them.
and then u can see my sweet-faced, sembui-loving, always-smiling, shy-faking love of my life. =D
nite world!
cheers
Danial Cheah
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[15 Apr 2008|02:21am] |
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that the next 1 and a half weeks of my life is gonna be dedicated to trying to make something happen for you.
i hope it turns out well.
love,
Danial Cheah
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